Failure

Today felt…. It felt like a failure. I felt like all of my hard work hasn’t been paying off.

All I want to do is blog, have a little boutique kinda like shop, and be able to quit my job.

Don’t get me wrong, I love what I do, but I’m ready to live my life while being able to take care of my family.

I ramble at times šŸ˜Š as you can see.

The website started to cost too much to maintain since I wasn’t making a single dime off of it. I had to let it go, almost.

Went back to the free website and couldn’t get it together for nothing in this world.

Ughhhh

Guess I’ll try again tomorrow.

Wash Day

Going natural can be a task but help has arrived. During my wash day, I use this Indian clay that helps soften and condition for more manageable hair. I’ve heard that it may also loosen up your curl pattern. So happy wash day!

Toothache from hell

This is a painful story about a cracked tooth.

Once apon a time about three years ago, I was eating a big fat tootsie roll and “BAM” I felt something that was not right. It did not belong with the tootsie roll. So I took the candy out of my mouth and to my surprise the chewed up candy had white bone looking particles in it.

OMG what had happened was I cracked my bottom tooth. How embarrassing to have that happen to someone like me who prides herself on keeping her teeth healthy. Needless to say I did not go to the dentist because it did not cause me any pain.

Fast forward to now.

I have been feeling a little discomfort recently, so I decided to take a couple of aleve to help the discomfort subside a little bit. Once again no major pain. Three nights ago, I felt a little pain so I took one aleve and let me tell you, I should have taken two and some ambesol and maybe should of even blew it way with a shot gun. Just kidding but omg I thought my tooth was in labor in the middle of the night and about to give birth to a baby tooth. Never have I ever felt this much pain other than giving birth and I did that twice.

So I’m saying all of this to say, when there is an issue with a tooth or other body parts that are not feeling well go see a doctor or a dentist.

But in the meantime, gargle with salt water, use pain meds such as aleve or ibuprofen, and a little orajel or ambesol will help a little until you can see a specialist.

Money Sucking Website Review

Before I get into this conversation, I just want you guys to know that I really did know better.

First off, I was thinking about how I could make a little money via a website and then out of nowhere I receive this call about how to make money using the money sucking system online.

I thought to myself, hmmm give it a try. Well, needless to say that was a bad idea after giving up my 47 bucks.

I had a rep call me and ask some questions, he then asked me for my email so he could setup a login and my phone number was my password.

After a million tries, I still could not login. I called back to only get a voicemail. He then texted me and said that he put my email in wrong and to try again, so I then tried to login on my cell.

I was able to login on my phone but when I tried my laptop it just keeps saying loading. I need this toĀ work on my laptop so I can utilize all the features.

Now its three days later and it still says the page is loading. I give up!!! I think I got got if you know what I mean.

Smh.

 

Com vs Org

Now that I have some time to play around with this blog, I wanted to learn how to add plug-ins and AdSense and all that other jazz to the website.

Well, after doing some digging, I learned that I would have to switch to business plan and that would cost me more just to be able to add other adds from differentĀ websites.

Argggh!! Can a girl just live! I know it takes money to build the site you want but I just wish that I would have known this before I purchased theĀ premium WP.

I have so many ideas and things that I want to do with this site but I know that things are very limited right now.

Don’t get me wrong this is a great place to get started with a blog and I am very greatful that I am doing something out of my comfort zone.

Anxiety And Depression

Anxiety and Depression….What is that? Well it took me almost 20 years to even figure it out. I noticed that in my 20’s I started having alot of sadness in my life, alot of not wanting to do anything or even be bothered with anyone except my child. And even then it was a major struggle. Crying and feeling sorry for myself, failed relationships that I wouldn’t wish on anybody, those in itself will have you going crazy. Some days it’s the crying, other days felt like I was going to die when my heart would beat out of my chest. What’s this? Why am I feeling like this, I cant get anything done. Finally, I got up the nerve to go see my doctor. Omg when I tell you I almost left because I felt like I couldn’t talk to a stranger or even family members about how I was feeling. Minutes later I was called to the back part of the doctors office for my consultation. A very deep breath is what I took and then I let it all out. Boy did I LET IT ALL OUT. After the tears and memories that I had forgotten about or at least pushed back to the part of the brain that has a lock and sign on the door that says Do Not Enter. I felt so much better and the doctor didn’t judge me at all, he just gave me a hug and stated that I just took my first step to freedom. I take meds as needed and I am very thankful that I went to see about me. If you’re having feelings that you just can’t control, please seek help.

Zoo Chronicles

Well today was zoo day with the students that I work with, and it started off as a simple day, raining on and off with a nice big wave of humidity to boot.

As we commenced to walk about the facility, what do I see, a giraffe. You may say to yourself ” ok and”? ( Insert laugh emoji ). This particular giraffe was sitting/laying, not standing but sitting/Laying. Out of all my years of going to the zoo, as a little child and as an adult, I have never seen a giraffe sit/ lay. Did you know that giraffes sleep only a few minutes at a time? Wow, what strange sleeping habits that the giraffe has.

Time

Time is of the essence and when I tell you there isn’t enough time in a day…I mean just that. I started this little blog to just voice my thoughts, opinions, and just life in general and I seem to not be able to keep up with that. Smh what is a girl to do. Good thing that I have the summers off to see what blogging adventures I can conjure up. So stay tuned and be patient because I will arrive.

Sick Days

Why is it that when you decide to take a sick day it’s a crime, but when others take one it’s ok. Let me tell you guys something I work with kids in a school setting and this year has really taken a toll on all of us including the kids with all this terrible flu that’s going

around. Parents still sending kids to school sick as ever and teachers are sick too. Well I decided that this year if I’m sick, I’m going to take a day and not give a damn what the “team” thinks. My health is more important at this moment in my life. Don’t get me wrong I love the kids but I love me and my well being first.

Lunch

Don’t you just love it when your little lunch packs a big punch and then afterwards you are so tired that you can hardly move, Well I will tell you that next time I think I will just leave the gravy, mashed potatoes, string beans and beef at home because now I can’t function and I need a nap!